The light at the end of the tunnel

August 5, 2012: On Ohid Farm.

One pleasant afternoon after pruning an entire row of apple trees, Sal and I made an amazing fruit salad and interesting pilaf lunch. I have so enjoyed our conversations because she is also a teacher but has been teaching for 10 years already. Sal's from Australia and grew up on a small farm, similar to Arthur's. In her free time, she has a private reiki healing practice. She asked if I'd like a session, so of course I said, "yes." 

She set up a comfy blanket under the shade of our plum tree and decorated with some random pillows she found. She set down a small velvet back with stones in it and immediately Forint (the dog) came to check them out. He sniffed the bag up close before abruptly jolting away from the bag. Perhaps he could sense something special was in the bag. Sal explained that she sometimes uses the stones and sometimes doesn't. She does whatever the body she's treating tells her to do. With that, I laid down and closed my eyelids........and here is what I saw:

I was traveling through a dark cave that was wet and rough (sort of like the Ape Cave lava tube in Washington). I could barely fit through it and it was made of layers and layers of rock, jagged rock that I had to struggle to push aside to get through. I knew I was working toward something though and had power to keep pushing the rocks away. I was sweaty, wet, and cold at the same time. I was dirty and scraped up from all the rocks. At the end of the cave, there was some french doors where bright light was shining on the other side. Ever so slowly, the light was starting to widen as if it was getting ready to welcome me. 

Along the path to the doors were lots of people to greet me. Some people I knew and others I didn't recognize, but I knew that they were all important to me. All of these people believed in me and knew that I had worked hard to get there. They were nodding to me as a sign of approval. 

Aaron was there and gave me a serious but sweet smiling nod. Cecilie was there too. Claudine was shining so bright and her face was practically glowing with excitement and happiness. Amaris was there, Nicole, and Lauren's mom. I felt so supported but at the same time on my own. I felt independent while walking by them all, empowered, and clear-minded. I know that i was working toward and it as my own decision solely based on my feeling, whatever it was. 

I can imagine that if there is some life after death, it might look like this to pass from this world to the next. Feeling warm and ready for the next chapter... whatever it may be. 

This imagery came and went as I slipped in and out of consciousness during the reiki session. I was woken up by Arthur talking so loudly about the tractor and its problems. He seemed to be oblivious to the fact that Sally was trying to concentrate on something. He didn't notice our peaceful setting.

Notes from Sal's feedback:
- Chest blockage: trust my intuition. Don't use your head all the time. It's ok to express my feelings and follow my intuition.
- Wanting to be nurtured... could happen soon in my travels she says.
- Self-discovery, soul searching - not in the sense that something's wrong, but finding my place in the world and discovering myself as an extension of who I already am. 

*p.s. The above image and this image was taken in Oysterville, Washington, during one of my favorite weekends of my life. I went on a spur of the moment road trip with Darrick to visit Nicole in her cabin along the sea. I only remember pure peace and happiness when I think of Oysterville... 

Like I can fly :)