Bright Spirits

Holy smokes! I had an incredible dream last night (July 22, 2012). It may have even been a "lucid" dream. I was with my siblings, Cile, Anton, and Flora. We were out in the countryside somewhere at night and were working on a project, moving things from a warehouse or to a warehouse. it looked like a big greenhouse or like the warehouse that used to be by Sail Sandpoint. Outside it was warm and dark and there were fireflies. The green grass was soft and wet on our bare feet. I don't think we were in a rush, but everyone seemed pretty focused on their task. I took a break outside and looked at the starry sky. Darrick came beside me too and was talking about something menail. As I stared up into the twinkling sky, the area around grew quiet. Everyone else had gone inside te warehouse. Somehow it felt like Darrick and I were teh only ones who were supposed to witness what was about to happen. Flora also saw it, but she was on the other sdie of the warehouse so we didn't know it until later.

I first saw a few starts start to swirl and glow extra bright. I tried to get Darrick's attention because I couldn't tell if it was just me or if the stars were spiraling and spinning into each other. I kept tugging at Darricks' arm and saying, "look, look! Look at the stars!" They looked like they were getting sucked into a black hole, except they never disappeared. They only got brighter. Then the swirl started taking shape and became a stag with impressive antlers. Immediately, Darrick and I looked at each other and read each other's thoughts... "Can you believe this? Are we dreaming? No this is happening! That is Josh's spirit!" We both knew it was Joshie in the sky. In this dream, we hadn't seen Josh in a long time I(for some reason, he was separated from the family) so it was so comforting to see and feel his presence as an elk-like creature. The star stag pranced gracefully across the sky. Then it sort of disappeared and the stars stopped moving. Another bunch of stars spiraled into life as other animals. I felt visited by lots of spirits and each one seemed to be empowering e and giving me strength, or whatever quality they were known for. some stars actually went in me. The spirits gave me part of themselves as a reminder that they're living in me and with me always.

When it was over, I felt like I could do anything. I knew I had a big purpose in this world and now I had the power to fulfill it. Darrick and I knew that no one would believe us when we told them what we saw, but we had each other to validate it. I don't know why we were chosen or what the purpose will be, but I will never forget the strong feeling of empowerment or knowing that I carry the strength of those spirits in me. It was as vivid as my dream about exploring the underground wonderland with my soul mate and finding my belongings. Perhaps, that'll be another blog post one day.
Like that dream, this one made me feel so strongly that it's burned into my memory. When I am feeling unsure during my travels, I can just remember this empowerment and know that I can do anything I put my mind to.
Sometimes I think I limit myself without realizing it. My potential is probably beyond what I can imagine, just as everyone's potential will rarely be met. I think human beings are capable of so much more than we think or aspire to. It makes me sad to think of a life half-lived. A life that never pushed the person to their limit in some way. Too much of our energy, time, and resources are poured into whatever makes comfort. We care for comfort more often than not.

I'm learning that the less comfortable I am, the more I learn and the more I am glad I had the experience. There have been several uncomfortable experiences this past year, all valuable in different ways, all memorable, and none I would replace.